I have the van to unload, work to do, lots of it. Never ending amount of work, always. I need rest and sleep, but don't seem to be able to sleep. I guess it is the state of mind and though that keeps me awake. When I do sleep it is from exhaustion. I have night mares about the house, the stuff broken and ruined on the floor, a lifetime of memories, both mine and the kids. The art of letting go would help, but I haven't gotten to that point yet. I still find myself in tears over pictures that can't be replaced and a life that will never be the same.
Well tomorrow is another day, but I am going to have to sleep at some point. I am getting really physically tired. Now that I have a trailer hitch on my van, I am going to get a little camp trailer, and I am going to take my tent and camping gear and go off into the mountains by myself. I need to get away from everyone. I need time alone.
Please don't get so tired that you make yourself sick. I do that often and it sucks.
ReplyDeleteI think I might have done just that.......just worked until I have nothing left. I am so tired. But my Celiac's also makes me very tired.
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