Off The Beaten Path

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Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.

Thursday, October 2

Getting Back to Normal

I unloaded the trailer into the storage today, then I loaded up a bunch of stuff for Goodwill and took them to the drop off. Then I returned the trailer to U-haul. It is nice having a trailer hitch. Whenever I need to load something and haul it somewhere I can just rent a trailer.

I slept in late today, almost 9:30. But I needed the sleep. I didn't get to sleep until almost 5am, so really I didn't get that much sleep total, but I still felt much better. I get my best sleep between 7 and 10 am. I am NOT a morning person, don't really care for early mornings. It is the early afternoon and evening that I enjoy best.

Before I left Effie I got a few pictures of the flowers. I asked the man tearing down the house if he would try and not destroy all of my flowers and he said that he would. I understand that doing demolition work will make it impossible to not tromp on them a bit, but at least he isn't bringing in heavy equipment that will totally demolish them.

Tomorrow I need to mow the lawn here in Georgia, but today I cleaned the garage so to make room for all the stuff that I brought back.


Burfica said...

I am not a morning person either. I do get up and do things during the day, but my prime time that I prefer to be up and doing stuff is 10 p.m. and later.

Maybe I should have been a vampire. hahahahaha

Avus said...

Sorry I have not called by for a while, Nea. Hell! You seem to have been going through it and it makes me realise how lucky we are in the UK. I shall never complain about our weather again!
Losing that beautiful house must seem like a bereavement and you are going to have to grieve for it.

Nea said...

Hi Burfica, I have never really been much of a morning person. So getting up early is just time for me to sit and have coffee, work does't actually begin until after 11 normally. But in Effie I was up by 6:00 and working hard by 7:00. It was still hot, and I was using a chainsaw and moving furniture, and all kinds of things. Stacking limbs, stacking metal from the roof.

Nea said...

Hi Avus, well it is something that you just never expect to happen to you. But I live where it is a common occurrence I guess. Although I came from California, and really didn't think that much about it. It was earthquakes I was used to.

I am going through mourning.....and it takes time. I lost so many things I can never replace, and I was a nostalgic type person, my family possessions meant a lot to me. I am the kind of person who cherishes heirlooms. Some of the things I lost won't mean anything to anyone but me. And my future has been altered beyond repair. Something that I think about everyday. I was going to go there to live full time in five years. Now that dream is gone. People mean well when they say, "well at least you are still alive," but truthfully when you are deep into depression, being alive isn't as much fun as one would think. I know why people contemplate suicide now. It all of a sudden became very clear to me, to escape the pain. Maybe not physical, but mental pain is just as painful. I cry a lot, something I never used to do, and I feel empty.

I lost my Dad this year, I lost my dog, and now my home. I know that I should find comfort in the things that I still have, but for some reason the hurt is stronger than the gratefulness. I hope it lifts soon, I don't like feeling this way. And I am in it all alone, there is no one who can understand my feelings. Nor do I really want anyone to have to share this, it is just my hurt....the kids brought everything they cared about here with them. And their Dad has no attachment to anything. A good way to be I guess.

Libby said...

nea, you have been through so much this year! on top of everything, you finally got a true diagnosis of what's up with your health...which, by itself, is a slap in the face from the body you thought you knew so well!! but we've got your back, remember that always!!